Facing the Future

Miss Fabulous joined us four years ago. By the time she was born we had been praying and waiting for her for four long years. We watched friends and family have child after child and wondered if we would ever be parents. Our prayers were closer to pleadings for just one chance to be parents. We sought medical help and eventually became pregnant, only to lose that baby the next month. We decided to forego more treatments for a few months to recover from our disappointment and loss. John left on business for 6 weeks around Christmas time and when he came home we were surprised to find ourselves 9 weeks pregnant! We looked forward with great anticipation and anxiety until the day she finally arrived.
Since then, we have enjoyed every day with our girl. There are days I wonder what I got myself into, like the day she painted herself and the floor with nail polish, unloaded all the DVDs all over the house, and tore all the pictures out of the scrapbook I had been working on. On the whole, I am thankful every day that I have been blessed with this amazing and fascinating little girl. This little girl who has brought out in me a like for pink, a patience I didn’t know I had, and a joy that I never thought I would experience. This little girl who has so much spunk, yet can be so tender and caring, who loves books like no other child I’ve seen, who pleads to do school work and who calls everyone her friend.
I stand in awe of this little girl and wonder what her future will bring. What will she do with her life as she grows older? How can I channel her energy into determination and will to excel in whatever she wants to do? Will I be able to teach her to be grateful for what she has and work for the things she needs and wants? The world can be a frightening place and I do fear for her, but how do I show her how to be fearless when faced with the decision of whether to do the right thing or the popular thing?
I love that, for now, the problems I’m fixing are scrapes and PB&J sandwiches, arguments over toys and cleaning rooms, and reminders of turning off lights and water. I know the years will be gone fast and the future will be here in a flash but I am determined to be thankful for each day and each minute I have with my family.


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Comments

*~McGarys~* said…
Thats Beautiful katie! i teared up a little and it was hard to read the last few sentences. I'm glade that you have such a great daughter and that you know she is a true blessing from are father:)
6/11/08 18:23
Candace said…
Sweet, very tender post!! Beautiful, the feelings you can have as a momma. :)
6/11/08 21:06
Scribbit said…
She really IS a cutie--

This makes me want to go hug my own kids--sometimes I just take them for granted I guess.
7/11/08 10:40
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