MIA
We have been more than a little busy lately. Our car, which we've had for nearly 10 years, called it quits at the end of August. We drove our little family around in John's tiny Tiberon for a while while John was fixing the family car. It needed a new head, manifold, etc. After working on it for nearly a month, we decided to buy a new car. John is still working on the old car and he has a buyer for it. Our new car isn't very fancy and it is not really new either, but it does the job for us! We now have to get used to having a car payment!!!
We started homeschool and I'm ready for MF to go back. She would be more than happy to go too. It takes her a million years to do anything. She refuses to get it done and then have plenty of time to play. If I'm not right there to make sure she's working, she sneaks off to play or read a book. If she was my only child, I think it would work a LOT better. But she isn't and so it doesn't. Additionally, we spend so much time WORKING that we don't have very much time to just enjoy each other. By the time we are done, I'm ready to send them all off to the basement and then zone out on the couch. I'd like to say that the best part is that I don't get phone calls from the school complaining about her, but I still get talked to about having her around at playgroups and story times etc. and so that constant worry and fear is still there. I have been told 2 or 3 times recently that I should have her evaluated, and perhaps I should.
I'm just tired. I'm tired of not having enough time in the day. I dislike making phone calls and so things get put on hold that should be, just because I don't want to make the call. I have a lot of responsibility at church and John does too. I think I am doing my best right now, but it isn't good enough. I struggle every week. I have help in the form of a counselor, teachers, and a chorister, but I feel almost as if I have MORE responsibility with them than I would without them. Well...that's not true. In some cases I feel that way. In others, I know they will do what they do and I won't have to worry...except that I feel like I'm failing everyone. It stinks.
I need a break. I'm taking one. In November, the kids and I are flying to Utah to have a long visit with my family until after the new year. John will join us for Christmas, but I'm just looking forward to it being just the kids as my primary responsibility for a solid 6+ weeks. It should be that way all the time anyway, but life gets in the way. The house clutter gets in the way. The extra activities get in the way. Time and money are in short supply and I find myself just looking forward to the next day instead of enjoying the day I have. I'm working on staying calm more and watching for moments that my kids do a positive thing and praise that. Sometimes its really hard to switch to positive. Watching the politics, I'd say the politicians are incapable of switching. I'd like to be able to think more positively naturally. Or make it second nature anyway. My goal.
As for the kids, Miss Fabulous, other than school, is doing well. We signed up to do a 5k together after Thanksgiving. We are working up to the 3 miles now. She's great on a bike, but running...not so much. Takes after her mother. I'm just excited to have something for both of us to work toward. She will start dance next week. She wants to try a Lyrical, Jazz, and Tap class. I think that sounds like a good idea.
Star just had her 3 year checkup and she is now 39" tall and weighs just over 35 lbs. She is lovely and determined (as always) and is extremely talkative. There are times in the day that I ask her if she can just be quiet for two seconds. Apparently, she can't. She will be starting up ballet again. I'm looking into a Preschool for her to start in January. She so badly wants to go to school too. We'll see. If we can't put her in preschool, I will have a little more time in January to work with her.
Dash is beginning to talk more. The words we hear the most: "ba" (for ball and bottle...meaning water bottle) and "peess" (for please). He is a very good boy still, although he IS into a lot. He is so cute driving his cars all over the place and tossing anything spherical (I had a plum chucked at me the other day). He also delights in getting his sisters' attention by any means necessary and he LOVES to be outside. He is now 36" tall and nearly 25 lbs. He is working really hard on jumping...trying to get both feet off the ground at once.
That's it for now. I have a few pictures from September that I will attempt to get posted soon, and hopefully we will be able to do more fun things now that we have a car!
We started homeschool and I'm ready for MF to go back. She would be more than happy to go too. It takes her a million years to do anything. She refuses to get it done and then have plenty of time to play. If I'm not right there to make sure she's working, she sneaks off to play or read a book. If she was my only child, I think it would work a LOT better. But she isn't and so it doesn't. Additionally, we spend so much time WORKING that we don't have very much time to just enjoy each other. By the time we are done, I'm ready to send them all off to the basement and then zone out on the couch. I'd like to say that the best part is that I don't get phone calls from the school complaining about her, but I still get talked to about having her around at playgroups and story times etc. and so that constant worry and fear is still there. I have been told 2 or 3 times recently that I should have her evaluated, and perhaps I should.
I'm just tired. I'm tired of not having enough time in the day. I dislike making phone calls and so things get put on hold that should be, just because I don't want to make the call. I have a lot of responsibility at church and John does too. I think I am doing my best right now, but it isn't good enough. I struggle every week. I have help in the form of a counselor, teachers, and a chorister, but I feel almost as if I have MORE responsibility with them than I would without them. Well...that's not true. In some cases I feel that way. In others, I know they will do what they do and I won't have to worry...except that I feel like I'm failing everyone. It stinks.
I need a break. I'm taking one. In November, the kids and I are flying to Utah to have a long visit with my family until after the new year. John will join us for Christmas, but I'm just looking forward to it being just the kids as my primary responsibility for a solid 6+ weeks. It should be that way all the time anyway, but life gets in the way. The house clutter gets in the way. The extra activities get in the way. Time and money are in short supply and I find myself just looking forward to the next day instead of enjoying the day I have. I'm working on staying calm more and watching for moments that my kids do a positive thing and praise that. Sometimes its really hard to switch to positive. Watching the politics, I'd say the politicians are incapable of switching. I'd like to be able to think more positively naturally. Or make it second nature anyway. My goal.
As for the kids, Miss Fabulous, other than school, is doing well. We signed up to do a 5k together after Thanksgiving. We are working up to the 3 miles now. She's great on a bike, but running...not so much. Takes after her mother. I'm just excited to have something for both of us to work toward. She will start dance next week. She wants to try a Lyrical, Jazz, and Tap class. I think that sounds like a good idea.
Star just had her 3 year checkup and she is now 39" tall and weighs just over 35 lbs. She is lovely and determined (as always) and is extremely talkative. There are times in the day that I ask her if she can just be quiet for two seconds. Apparently, she can't. She will be starting up ballet again. I'm looking into a Preschool for her to start in January. She so badly wants to go to school too. We'll see. If we can't put her in preschool, I will have a little more time in January to work with her.
Dash is beginning to talk more. The words we hear the most: "ba" (for ball and bottle...meaning water bottle) and "peess" (for please). He is a very good boy still, although he IS into a lot. He is so cute driving his cars all over the place and tossing anything spherical (I had a plum chucked at me the other day). He also delights in getting his sisters' attention by any means necessary and he LOVES to be outside. He is now 36" tall and nearly 25 lbs. He is working really hard on jumping...trying to get both feet off the ground at once.
That's it for now. I have a few pictures from September that I will attempt to get posted soon, and hopefully we will be able to do more fun things now that we have a car!
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